Just to clear the air, still no baby news/change.. Darn it.. I did go to my Dr and if I dont get pregnant this cycle, then I'll go in for a blood test to help determine my likely-hood of getting pregnant. I tell you its not cuz we are being lazy about this whole process. My friend said to wear this ring, it brings fertility.. well after 3 months and no go, the ring is back in the drawer. She gave me a cross to place by my bed for good blessings. I was told to buy the baby blanket we intend to bring little one home from the hospital in, well that's not working. The blanket is hanging on my bed.. sigh. I pee daily on sticks to determine when I might be ovulating, 3 months into that and no luck. I now am taking my temperature, as that is supposed to tell me when I ovulate.. so we'll see. I'm starting to finally get over the anxiety of it all and be a bit more relaxed about this process. I had this imaginary clock looming over my head and was putting soooo much pressure on myself to hurry up and get it done already.. partially from depression of all that we went through and I actually really enjoyed the brief time I was pregnant.. not that I loved feeling crappy, but I loved that I was making a baby and my relationship with Derek took a new turn.
I have decided for now though, I'm going to start riding again.. when/if I ever find the time! I had put it off, thinking I would get pregnant right away, plus to help relieve the financial burden we were full-leasing my horse to the neighbors.. but I need to ride as that helps me find peace and makes me happy. So for now, I'll just ride and when things do move along, we'll decide from there how long I will ride for. Must be happy!!
Derek was asked to judge a hunt test a few weeks ago over in Quilcene. It was somewhat of a disaster of a weekend as far as the hunt test goes.. But we had a nice time camping with friends over there. We only took Cooper, tented it, the weather was awesome and we had a fun time getting to know our Canadian hunt test friends and other hunt test peeps better. Because the turn-out was low, we decided to run Cooper in a Seasoned test on Saturday. Probably shouldnt have, but it was good practice I guess and gave us a better feel for exactly where he is at. He failed of course! lol But he did much better than we thought. His biggest issue is the birds still.. doesnt like to pick them up and refuses to deliver to hand. Which means he drops them at your feet and will not pick it up.. Basically telling Derek "Hey I brought it back, reluctantly, what else you want from me??" :) At the Seasoned level, the dog has to deliver the bird to your hand, not the ground.. Oh well. Derek's been taking him to the trainer Pat for weekly sessions. And Pat has confirmed that the problem is not a discipline one with Cooper, it's still a major bird aversion/bad memory issue. And it could take a year of working with birds to help him get over it.. Cooper will pick up Chukkar and Pheasant no problem, heck he wont let go of those birds, but Ducks are a big problem for him.
Not to dwell on the past, but we have heard from 2 sources in the past couple months, a story about our dog! A very disturbing one at that... We've learned that while Cooper was in training for the 3 months (which is the same training that darn near ruined our dog), apparently Cooper was so upset, that he bolted and disappeared for more than 24 hours! And according to rumor, this happened twice!! People have successfully kept this story from us for 3 years, but it has finally surfaced and although that is in the past, it still bothers me a great deal and at times, makes me pretty angry. We paid this trainer $2000 for 3 months and we have a dog that 3 years later, still will not pick up a duck willingly.. and now find out our dog ran away... phew that is a lot to process and accept! So the solution, we now are spending min $30/week on birds, to help Cooper move forward. We wont be able to afford that for long, so for now while we can, we are putting in as much training time as possible. Because of all the work Derek has put in for Pat over the past 4 months, he is helping us out a great deal with Cooper and providing a lot of support. Derek certainly didnt put in the work to get anything in return, he just enjoys being out on the property, farming with Pat and also working next to him and watching him train dogs, picking up on techniques etc.
Well Derek's unemployment ended exactly 4 weeks ago.. I was going into silent panic mode.. but that same day we got his last unemployment check, his previous employer called and wanted to hire him back. They will only be open for another month (July 31st closing date), but for now, he has steady work with a pay increase to come back! It helps, even if it only lasts for 2 months. He did not get on with the Electrical Union, he was 29th out of 107. Scored 98.8 however they only took in the top 18 and he is only down the list so far because the other guys have experience whereas he has none. They will be re-interviewing the end of July, so there is still a chance he could get accepted then, but since he still will have no experience, chances seem slim. He's been offered a position with Snohomish Electric, the company I used to work for LONG ago... but the pay with them is only $10-$11/hr and I'm not sure we can swing that w/o loosing our house.
He keeps applying with Boeing, patience is the key I guess.. But not banking on them either. He had an interview yesterday for a metal fabricator shop in Marysville. I think they are looking for a working manager type position, he has a good chance of getting that job and with hopefully a decent pay offer. It will be something for now and just play it by ear with the electrical. I think neither of us anticipated this career change to be quite so challenging. Every company out there wants experience, and those that will take him w/o, want to pay so low, it's just not feasible to make the transition. So not sure what career path he will end up on, I just remind myself, either way.. we will be fine!! Derek is not one to sit idly by, he works hard to ensure he's moving forward.
I also spent a few weeks working on our garage.. It's been a thorn in my side for quite some time, years actually. A project I've put off because I didnt know where to start. Well one day I just started. We had a path from the outside to the door into the house, everything else was covered with "stuff". About 10 hours later I finished and can now park my car in the garage!!
Oh and while I was at it, I cleaned/organized the shed too!!